Sunday 25 March 2007

The Soothsayer - Cigarette


Notorious serial arsonist Nongchai had been acquitted in 1846 for his responsibility in causing harm to twenty-one people and four deaths in one of his fires.

Seven months later, he was decapitated in a boating accident.

His new life began.


Perhaps the greatest horror in this place was it's unyielding tolerance to succumb to expectations.

Many people would say that the sufferance of the flesh marked the focal principality here. Then those many people apparently had never been here. Not yet. For the pride of the local taskmasters had dedicated the punishment to the human psyche. Because the mind could fine tune and blend the flesh to endure any harshness, with due time. The mental immunity. The habitual instinct to adapt. Therefore it was only rational to remind and reeducate the human minds in every cherry minute that they had came here to suffer the worst and nothing less.

Nongchai opened his swollen eyes, a thin line of visionary field. The three suns took turns to boil the air with intense violet and sulfur gases. He felt for his body. Intact. There was a time where they taped his head onto the arse of a two headed ox for eons. Nongchai had passed out for some time. Someone did something to him. Nongchai would remember soon, for unconsciousness was a myth in this place. No one could sleep nor black out here, no matter how tortuous the routines gotten. They had to make sure everyone suffer every cherry waking second in this place. The seas of volcanoes made entirely of mankind erupted, washing erosive lava downstream to the million angling bodies. They screamed like neonates.

Some thought that with enough sufferings, the nirvana of redemption could be ultimately attained. That was ludicrous. Redemption was a concept only available in the mortal world. Besides, giving such hopes would only encourage the sinners to accept their punishment more readily. What kind of Hell would allow that? The mission of the local taskmasters was to kill any form of acceptance in this place. For without acceptance to one's peril, only can one truly agonize without ever learning how to cope.

Nongchai proceeded to move. It was everyone's motivation here to turn away from the suns, hoping to seek shade of some kind. The air was frying his skin. There were people everywhere. Hell was made up of sinners literally. The landscapes, the suns, the infrastructures and even the devices meant for punishments were made entirely of people. Underneath his weak feet, the earth of sinners stacked flat in gazillion bodies. Nongchai snipped his left toe into an eye of a sinner on the floor. Nongchai turned to look at the blood on his toe. It was not his.

Every sinners that died would drifted through the Valley of Passing first. The passage acted like a filter, removing certain human qualities while intensifying others. They would be immortals, but they couldn't recover nor heal damages to the flesh at all and they felt hungry and thirsty all the cherry times. When a sinner lost his arm, he could sew back on if he wanted. Could he still be able to feel that arm? Yes. For the intolerance to pain was so intensified that they rather not kept that rotting limb at all. Sometimes, sinners would appear with foreign objects attached to them, like a tree branch or another sinner's head, a consequence of the merry making by the local taskmasters.

And someone put something inside him, Nongchai was sure. Soon enough, a pack of humanoids were chasing him into the jungle of skins and hair. Nongchai ran with his nimble legs and tried to hid in some trees made of sinners. The trees were subjected to invasions by the eyeless birds, the insects made of sharp fingers and the hacking from the local taskmasters. The tree betrayed Nongchai by shrieking out to the humanoids. Nongchai kicked the tree and began to run again.

Contraband were sometimes leaked to the sinners. Be it a tiny flask of water, a piece of writing or a coin to play with, the voidness of any pleasure in this place would create a savage war with such contraband in-situ. There it was logical to realise that these contraband were placed by the local taskmasters to make a show out of the sinners.

Nongchai sat near the stream of blinking eyes, panting. His lungs weighted piercingly against his shrunken heart like a rusty spear. His head sweltered up as he felt a rush of nauseating turmoil inside. Something was inside him and those humanoids wanted it badly. Nongchai felt for his old wound site at the top right side of his head. It was chewed off some years ago. He put his fingers inside to assess the wound, and he dug out wet yellow tissues with a handful of maggots. The tiny insects each possessed a human face squirmed and wiggled restlessly. Nongchai crushed them in his fist and wondered what the humanoids wanted from him. The humanoids were of course sinners like him, but they came and stayed way longer than Nongchai. Things in this place do stuff to your mind, thought Nongchai.

Hunger had always been an issue around here. A starkly need that was strongly deprived. Nongchai had been tasting his intestines for months now. A small bite each time when his hunger pangs struck badly. At first he kept hitting his stomach to make them stop, until he punctured a hole in it. The pain was insanely mesmerising, yet the hunger never ceased. Nongchai had saw other sinners eating themselves or at others and he decided to try. It was a funny experience tasting your own flesh. It was then Nongchai had decided he had long abandoned what was left of his humanity.

Nongchai heard his vicious attackers closing up again. It looked like they would not stop hunting him until they had gotten what they wanted. What was that they wanted? Nongchai decided it was best to find out and surrender to them. After all, there weren't any places to run in this place.

Nongchai felt for what it appeared to be a shard of sharp bone in the mud of skulls and felt for its sharpness. He then touched his wasted skin, trying to decide where to violate himself. He dug deep inside his craved belly, crawled his fingers between his guts with stabbing tenderness. It was not in his guts. Nongchai breathed out a tremble of hot air as he felt for his back where the kidneys were. Using the stream water as reflection, he began to slice the dry bone into the side of his waist. Then he dug with his fingers again. Each turn of the index and the middle finger made him sweat pain in his eyebrows and winching in jumpy agony.

No. It was not in his back. Nongchai heard them coming. It seemed that they had gathered more of their clan. He could smelt them. Their shadows fell on him like vultures as they shrieked in maniacal glee.

'No! No! No! Please!' Screamed Nongchai.

The mishapped humanoids tore Nongchai up like a laundry basket. Blood flew and colon uncoiled. They dug deeper and snapped away all his ribcage with their teeth. Nongchai cried and cried. The sinners upon hearing his cries, could only weep along with him, for pain was their only prerogative here.

They could not find what they wanted in Nongchai.

Then it was all silent.

It was strange that Hell could be silent. Not a sound was heard. It was like waiting for the rain to fall.

A distant long horn was heard. Two long horns and three short horns were blown.

The humanoids scampered away in fright, leaving Nongchai with his entrails exposed helplessly.

Another sharp fast horn was blown. The call for arms.

Nongchai then saw thousands of demons in battle armors flew in the burning horizons on gargantuan locusts. The skies turned black with their passing.

Nongchai touched the wet insides of his chest and felt for the circumference of his tattered heart. It was a mess. And through the bloody mess, he pulled out a cigarette. A contraband. It was what they were looking for all along. It was hidden in the cave of his pinkish heart. His trembling hands took the cigarette, dipped it in the water and had it sizzled in flames. With his broken back still on the soil made of skulls, his insides sunned, Nongchai smoked the cigarette and thought about his predicament.

Nongchai howled and wept at the eternal violence of this place.



To be continue...
















































16 comments:

  1. whoa, i thought that only i could write something this long.

    i'll be back.

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  2. something must be terribly wrong with me to have like this bit the best so far in this long winding tumultuous litany of horrors

    in any case, why would Nongchai smoke the cigarette and think about his "predicament"? it's illogical. he should have been laughing for outwitting all the humanoids - even if the act of laughing would mean spilling more of his innards unto the ground. he couldn't help himself. sssssttt!!! his innards just sizzled on the boiling heat of the landscape. he puffed - aaaah.. menthol.. and he held his lungs to prevent the smoke from seeping out.. then he realized his hands were now too bloody and he wouldn't want the blood to cut the smoking session short so he huffed and puffed till the stub burnt his lips, and even then he didn't stop, heck he might as well swallow the thing.. and he did.

    i know i know i know.. nobody enjoys nothin' in hell.. so what's the point of the damned cigarette then??

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  3. HELL , let the man smoke in peace !

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  4. sometimes there are instances in life, where u cry even while doing the things you loved most in life. things you thought would make u happy. but they didn't. that's when u realized that u are truly forsaken and alone in this world and nothing would ever make u happy again.

    i heard that some people wept after sex. poor example but still. i had already intend to end with him crying no matter how. to smoke that cigarette or not is not important anymore.

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  5. that's hell alright.. no light at the end of the tunnel.

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  6. an odd (i.e. brilliant but weird) professor admitted this to the whole class. but he said he wept because he's overwhelmed with happiness. that singlehandedly skyrocketed his "weirdo" reputation to epic and still unparalleled heights. but he's filthy rich. he has an elevator in his house, peacocks in his lawn and swimming pool lined not with tiles, but with marble. (he asked us to submit the final paper in his house and have some wine and cheese on the side. didn't i tell you he was eccentric? his toilet had leather seats.)

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  7. well at least he's getting some.

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  8. how is hell coming along?

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  9. jeniong: the concept of zombies (or undead, whatever you call them) trying to enjoy the pleasures of life even when they can't feel anything is not exactly difficult to explain. in plain english, they just want to try if they can ever be satiated by them. it's like a fat guy waking up every day and drinking those diet replacement stuff to see if it works (even though they've tried for years and it hasn't).

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  10. defeats the concept of pain in hell innit?

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  11. wrong people, in hell u feel everything, fucking everything.

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  12. my point exactly. thank you.

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  13. Maybe when you feel everything , you are overwhelmed enough to be numbed to a certain extent ?

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  14. i think in hell there must be some kind of things that u cant feel so that it cuts you more.

    u probably cannot feel: satisfaction, acceptance, gratification and denial.

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