Episode 25: Air/Love Is Destructive

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i'm craz'y.

Episode 26: My Purest Heart For You (Sincerely Yours)/ ONE MORE FINAL: I Need You.

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'Good evening, Mister Salesman. I need something. I need lobotomy.'

Domo Arigato Roboto. If only time and space are mechanical.

[Flashback] I saw Shinji Ikari sitting on the hedges of a cliff, brimming with the evening mist of sorrow and self pity.

[Flashback] When I was in primary school, there was a stony path in which leads into the school. I used to hurry myself to get in front of the commuting students, thinking that if I could get in front of them, one by one, I will best them in life. I avoided the cracks in the pavement too.

raknax. raknax.

[Flashback] I saw the shadow of the baby bed fell onto me as my father smashed towards me. My arm gave way.

[Flashback] When we were too deep in our kisses in the playground at three am, I asked her of her bra size and she seized my hand into her cotton shirt. I was nineteen.

'What exactly do you need, sire? We only sell regular stuff for regular folks.'

[Flashback] I used to look out of my kitchen window and wondered how will it feel like if I just climb over?

[Flashback] WXJ never felt love for me. But she had pecked my cheek in the bookstore. I was red with shyness.

'I need something.'

[Flashback] I sat uncomfortably in the pub with HL and Chang. There was a mammoth cake with free alcohol served. HL had called a dozen people, and no one came for my birthday. That was this August.

[Flashback] I used to hit my younger brother when we were younger. Just for the kicks.

'But we only sell...'
'LISTEN TO ME! PIGFUCKER! LISTEN CAREFULLY!'

[Flashback] I wriggled in fright and pain as my hallucinations contoured with the effect of my medications and pain. I couldn't sleep. I was terrorized all the time while I was in the hospital for my operation. I couldn't sleep at all.

[Flashback] When the morning came, I requested to shift my bed. I couldn't sleep on that bed! It was damned! But I did not tell them the reason. I just demanded that I need to change my bed.

[Flashback] Am I just doing this alone? I asked meekly. WXJ said, don't be absurd.

[Flashback] Erm... Why have you decided not to visit me in the hospital? I mean, people I barely knew came, but you and I have a decade of history. 'I am having problems with my girlfriend.'

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[Flashback] The fling had declared, 'My parents are not at home, they won't be back until midnight.'

Come on Shinji had the whole bestial metal of Unit 01 to hide, I am just a human meat bag.

So I'm not homicidal. The terrorist decided. I'm just suicidal. With that thought, he detonated himself.

[Flashback] Robin.

[Flashback] Alfred.

[Flashback] Boon.

[Flashback] Good luck for your chem prac tomorrow. Rem to stir carefully. - Read Joyce's pager texting to mine.

[Flashback] Joyce wrote in my chinese textbook: 人以人之间因该互相帮忙，世界才会变得更美好!

Two days ago, I dreamt my youngest brother drowned. I couldn't sleep again.

[Flashback] ? to ? - I loved you.

[Flashback] At twenty, I decided to live for five more years where enough is enough. I have thoughts about planning the end. Preferably in Jurong areas. Where the jump is furthest away from my flat. This way I will not scarred the memory of those still living in  Chai Chee.

Cobain sang - We can plant a house, we can build a tree. We can have all three!

[Flashback] ? to ?: Do you miss me? I know I do.

[Flashback] The three of us. White uniforms and red ties. We were inseparable.

[Flashback] Jennifer: Are you afraid of dying?
                  Me: I don't know.

Cobain wrote - It's better to burn out than to fade away.

[Flashback] The Fling: I feel so cheap.

[Flashback] I have many friends.

[Flashback] The Fling: You will never find someone as good as me! She will never know you and pleasure you the way I did!

[Flashback] The Fling: Why? Are you feeling sad? (Chuckles) I'm with my boyfriend now. No time to talk (Chuckles more).

Sera to Ben (1995) when they met: 'For five hundred bucks, you can fuck me in the ass. You can cum on my face. Just keep it out of my hair. I just washed it.'

Ben to Sera (1995) when he died: 'See how hard you make me, angel?'

If only time and space were mechanical.

甘き死よ、来たれ

'I need to forget.'
'...' The salesman/wizard of Oz stared.
'Please. Everything.'